Dunno how to start with,
My status,,have a gf.......have a beloved girl.......have a young girl which has frequent communication.
My gf, in reality, the feeling is weak.....
My beloved girl...is married,,,,,the feeling is strong....but when the time passed by, the deep mind tell me keep out of her...as the time decay,,,, she lived with others.....although i am settled. But it is seemingly meaningless.......as many stuff we always shared with,,,we care each other....but we cannot share physically.......just mentally.....
Before 2010, i think it is enough...i am satisfied. although i know my mind is ok with that.......but ..
The young girl give me a new insight into a life.....
The problem to have a affair,,,,is that i cannot live or share my feeling publicly,,,,,in the day time, many love scene happened around me trigger me the question why.
Why,,,the present situation i am not satisfied. I mean i have no much feeling on my dating relationship.......and when my feeling is strong,, i need to hide the feeling or suppress it.......
It is abnormal............so based on this combination,, the life will be go on......
I will live with a girl that i have no much feeling......and then deal with a girl that have feeling......it can strike a balance though....
But is it i deserved????
If another girl come,,,,i can surely solve the problem,,, i can live with the girl that have feeling and no need to suppress it...right???
Time will proved........dunno what will happened next month.?
Let see...........
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